The word you're trying for is "abhorrent." Not "abborhernt." It means "repugnance; detestable; loathsome" per dictionary.com. All these words are very, very close to "hate." So, what you are saying, in essence, is that God has given you the right to hate. I disagree. I believe that God has given all of us the opportunity to love.

Enough said, You will either open your mind and heart to God's love, or you won't.